First Days

From Lauren's personal blog:

These have been confusing and depressing days. We've been here on this edge for a week now. Everything is so strange and different. Even using this machine to record my thoughts - I miss my cubes where all you had to do was talk and sometimes even think and there it was, all recorded . With this thing I have to actually use my fingers and type. Oh well, such is the life of a fish out of water.

Ric would say at least I am doing something. I sort of feel badly yelling at him for the past three days. Everytime he came to my room I started to blame him, my father, Tarq, Carr, the universe for what was happening to me. Maybe it was my fault - I should have been more I don't know - bubbly, willing to be something I am not. Anyway, everytime Ric came to the door, all I felt was annoyed. I was angry that he was so damn noble. and I feel guilty that he left Tayela. I don't know how I am going to survive this. But I will.

This place is my new home and Dal Ryeas is behind me.